My major concern is the authenticity of my writings.
It means that the words I use should be directly coming from my Innermost Core. Without
interference of my mind. This is only possible by continuously being open to my Depth.
This Dimension is silent, limitless and timeless. By waiting, words come to the surface.
These words aren't stirred by other words as is commonly the case. On the contrary they
originate from Emptiness! Hence they are always original, authentic and full of surprise.
"Behold, I make everything new". Only when the words exactly mirror the
underlying Truth, resonance occurs. Then the Essence is pouring itself out. Even through
the slightest abberation, words don't reflect the Deep within. In those cases the latter
will not reveal itself. Therefore, an authentic spiritual teacher will always be in touch
with his/her Essence. He/she may ask you to do the same. For in order to receive his/her
wisdom you should be equally unbiased. If your own thoughts, expectations, desires,
comments, judgements are in between, the message will certainly be distorted according to
your own pre-conceived ideas. Nothing new will happen to you, nothing fresh will enter
your Being. You will miss the point. A true spiritual communion on the other hand happens,
when both teacher and readers tune in into their Innermost Core.
Even after decades of "spirituality"
reaching many people, there appears to exist a lot of misunderstanding about it. One
factor is its popularization e.g. commercialization. Magazines publish articles with
titles like "how empty are you?", "did you already realize the divine spark
in yourself" and the like. The Depth of Spirituality has turned into a supermarket,
where you chose those things that "suits" you. Hardly anybody realizes that
these are only mind-games with no underlying Reality, whatsoever. Isn't it an irony that
the movement that is supposed to be a successor to the empty concepts of Christianity
displays excactly the same pattern? Not to mention the intentional abuse of spirituality
in favor of the effectiveness of company workers. The Spirit as the driving force behind
The longing to return to the Origin, to once again
being part of the Whole - ultimately the Whole itself - that is where it is really all
about. It is the most primordial drive in humans. Nowadays it is more actual than ever.
Because of our addiction to the ego, "returning Home" has become a matter of
life and death. Either our ego "dies" or the planet will die. Let's analyze the
ego. In order to thrive "the ego has to make a difference". It is comparing
itself with others to confirm its "unicity". It means that the ego is ALWAYS
excluding others. Deep within it (unconsciously) senses its fragility, a house without a
foundation, therefore it is constantly seeking to boost its identity. This happens at the
expense of the Whole. This need for personal identity is subsequently projected into
religion. Ego becomes "God". Now "God" says: "I am the Allmighty,
the All-Powerful.* My religion is the only true one". It is the root of religious
* Although critisizing patriarchy for it,
feminists are seeking the "Divine Feminine" with the aim of boosting "women
empowerment", using (however justified their cause!) rather than surrendering to it.
Do we ever really learn?
In order to save the planet - to become part of the
Whole, once again - the ego stands in the way. It is self-centered rather than being
related to the Whole. Because of 2000 years of spiritual ignorance the ego has blown
itself up to enormous proportions. It has reached all corners of the earth, destroying the
latter's foundations. With the ego in command for another decade or so......the planet
will stop being a safe haven for humans. So, what to do? Going out to join an activist
group? If you truly feel like that, you should obviously do it. Digging deeper you come to
understand that your actions originate from your ego. However noble your objectives. Very
soon you will be trapped in all kinds of ego-games. You may then realize that fighting the
ego with the ego is counter-productive. It's even strengthening it. You then start
searching for the beyond, the dimension in yourself that is embodying oneness and unity.
"There isn't a way to peace, peace is the way". In practice, you may start
searching for the Divine Spark within you. You find it by "stepping back", by
becoming the observer of your thoughts, emotions and desires.
HERE ARE THE NINE STEPS
You can only achieve Wholeness if you first find
Wholeness in yourself. You then create "concentric circles" around you. Step by
step you work toward Healing the Planet. Now, because of the reasons given above, the
Truth about spiritual Realization has been blurred. Moreover, a new generation is
emerging that isn't very familiar with spirituality. Thus the first question is how to
achieve Oneness in yourself. For that it is important to have some idea about the Road
ahead of you. Contrary to popular belief this is not a matter of "visualizing the
light". It is not an easy mind-trick at all. In fact, finding Wholeness is a
life-long mission. It is based on a deep longing for giving up your ego and to serve the
1. THE THIRD EYE
You discover it by becoming the observer of your
thoughts, emotions and desires. You "do" this by making an inner step back.
There appears an inner distance between the two. "I am here and my thinking is
there" (in front of you). The observer is the first step towards Realization. It is
silent, unmoving, peaceful and empty. Rather than be at the mercy of thinking, it has
stepped back in such a way that you are free from thinking and the thinking is free from
you. While you are resting in your True Self, thoughts are floating freely, unhinderd by
your ego interpretations, comments etc.
Just relax, while first making feeling contact with
your body, e.g. through feeling your feet in contact with the floor, your back in contact
with the chair. Then close your eyes while watching the inside of your eyelids in a very
gentle stress-free way. This watching is your New Self, your Third Eye. For the first time
you are "master in your own house", instead of being taken in tow by your
thinking. The result is living in the HereNow.
How simple is this. It is nothing less than (a
first) awakening! After having done this for a while (days, weeks) you may then deepen
your commitment to your liberation by choosing your favorite way of meditation. The result
should be stabilization of your Inner Observer, in such a way that it will stay where it
is, even when confronted with (strong) emotions.
The criteria for the authenticity of your New Self
is - while thoughts, emotions and desires come up and pass by - that you watch the latter
SIMULTANEOUSLY e.g. in the selfsame moment of appearence "on your screen" and
this without any effort. Everything happens in One Undivided Moment. You watch
uninterruptedly, while resting in yourSelf, while thoughts etc. are coming and going. This
first step is the most crucial one. All further steps are an extension of this. Therefore,
pay a lot of attention to it. Only when firmly rooted you move to Level Two, the Dance.
2. THE DANCE
The first step is the (temporal) separation of your
Inner Observer and the content of your Mind (thoughts, emotions and desires). In the Dance
the Observer is extending. It becomes your Inner Space, this time located in your Heart
"Chakra". You perceive your Heart to be your Centre. This Inner Centre has an
inner distance to the bodymind as a whole. While the Centre appears to be silent,
unmoving, peaceful, bright and empty, your body is overflowing with energy. Inside is your
Cool Heart, while your periphery is ecstatic. This can be illustrated by the "Dancing
Shiva" (Nataraj). In this wellknown sculpture Shiva's Heart is the unmoving Centre,
while his periphery is overflowing with energy (flames).
It may happen while e.g. walking/running. Many
people report, that sometimes, especially when they become tired suddenly! "Something
within" is taking over. It is not them that run anymore. It happens always suddenly,
within a split second, proof of the fact that you made a leap into a new inner Dimension.
It is a discontinuus leap, not an extension of your previous experience. It is new, fresh,
powerful yet empty, undefinable yet very present. "Not me, but Christ in me"
(St.Paul). This New Dimension is - like the Third Eye - part of Great Consciousness,
manifested within you. It is not limited to a small spot (between your eyes) anymore, but
is perceived as a spacious area. While walking/running develop body and breath awareness.
In that case the leaps may occur more often.
In my case I walked for many years every day and
that again for many hours spontaneously in that condition. No effort on my part at all.
Once the Innermost Core is breaking through you ego-control has disappeared. Your Within
determines the events. It also means that there isn't any concern about social
conventions. You walk the way your Essence "wants to walk". This often leads to
VERY humoristic situations. Because without ego-control previously unconscious
"archetypes" will be released, highly charged psychological complexes.
So, you suddenly may walk like a fool, making all
kinds of odd movements. With the Source "behind it" providing limitless energy,
this is often a very powerful act, indeed. Other people may notice it, staring at you with
amazement. In this way I walked like a goose, a roaring tiger, like a soldier marching,
any moment on the brink of laughing for no reason.
This experience of having limitless energy is the
Source of ongoing joy. Once this inner track is open you may experience it in other
activities as well. One of my favourites: cycling. After having made conscious contact
with the pedals and the handlebars, while "letting my behind down into the
saddle", suddenly the Silent Power is breaking through. It exerts such a tremendous
speed, such a strain on the bicycle, that you fear it may collapse any
The same Realization may happen during washing the
dishes, dancing or making love. The emphasis is not on "making" though, but on
body-awareness. More about the latter in my essay about "Mother Tantra".
PS. For my Tantra and Kundalini experiences,
3. TRANSCENDING THE BODY
E.g. while cycling something else may happen. It is
the next stage of Cosmic Realization. Rather than experience (limitless) energy, your body
suddenly becomes empty. And not only your body. The Silence is everywhere, in and around
you. It is very gentle and sweet. Through it you feel connected with everything around
you. To such an extent that "you love the grass like yourself". I often
spontaneously fell on my knees kissing the green. Everything is so precious, nothing
excluded. For the first time you realize the sacredness of existence. Not through a
concept or idea, but through becoming all-inclusive Space. All faculties of the mind are
still active, though. It means that while being Space you may simultaneously have comments
on it. "My God" (Mother!) how beautiful this is. However, these thoughts do not
dominate you. They do not originate from thinking. They are precious gems, that praise the
glory and the beauty of life. In case of cycling, you only move very gently, subtle and
slow. Nowhere to go, everything is perfect HereNow.
You may want to develop this quality to such an
extent that it becomes your "First Nature". It is easy. The foundation is
"feeling (body) awarenes. In all situations of life you start feeling your foot soles
in contact with the floor, your back in contact with your clothes, chair or matrass, while
feeling and watching your breathing, always with emphasis on the breathing out, the moment
it disappears into the emptiness! of your pelvis. Watching while simultaneously feeling is
essential. Only then there can be a feedback between the two. Awareness raising the energy
level, the latter in turn promoting clarity of mind. So, very soon, while sitting in a
chair you will transcend your body, including your direct surroundings: the chair, the
carpet, the table, the vase with flowers and the cat winking at you.
Contact with everything around you has become
direct, without any interference of your mind. For the first time you see things as they
really are. Seeing this way is seeing everything for the first time. Everything is equally
precious. Your surroundings have become part - content! - of your extended Space. Space is
all-inclusive, it is the foundation of Love and Compassion. Again: "you love
everything like yourself". This No-Mind is the precondition for "enlightened
Action". "Without any thinking on his/her part, he/she jumped into the water and
saved the child". It is proof of the fact that supreme action doesn't need thinking.
Awareness is the Master, thinking is its servant. Clarity of Mind determines the quality
of your life.
PS. I didn't mention the
necessity of additionally integrating unprocessed contents of the mind, this in order to
achieve true Wholeness. Because there are many other places in the website where I have
elaborated on this important! issue e.g. it is a crucial step ("Personal
Integration") in "The Universal Way"
Everything that happens suddenly, unexpected and
discontinuus has the potential of coming from your Depth. That is particular true in this
and subsequent Stages. To be One with the All is traditionally called Moksha, Samadhi or
Satori. Suddenly! another Dimension has taken possession of you. Usually provoked by a
random event, like a noise, a sun ray though the trees, or a (Zen) Master shouting at you.
Suddenly a Totally Different Quality has replaced common perception. This Dimension is
everywhere, in and around you. It is transcending all of existence, making everything New.
It is the Otherness that has lifted the world up to a thusfar unknown level. Everything
exalted to a "higher" Dimension. Everything, including yourself is part of it.
You realize that this is the Truth, your True Homeland. You may laugh for no reason.
"How simple this is", "this is IT", "how stupid I have been"
The difference with Step Three is that this time
Oneness is not an extension of your Inner Space. Instead, a Totally Other Dimension has
taken possession of all and everything. A Totality with Numenous Quality, indeed the
Divine Itself, making itself known to the world. This world appears as Totally NEW, Unique
and Precious. Everything is "Prisoner" of Eternity. Nothing stands on its own,
but is interconnected with everything else.
Again, exercise may pave the way in order to invite
Satori to happen. It was in 1981 that I opened my "Living Zen School". Later,
this resulted in "The Universal Way", a basic spiritual training for every
sincere seeker. Especially the (unique!) "Heaven & Earth Exercises" prove to
be "highly effective" in opening the gate to the Divine
5. FULL ENLIGHTENMENT
While in Satori your consciousness has become One
with Great Consciousness, in Full Enlightenment the former has completely dissolved into
the latter, together with all faculties of the common mind (as a matter of course). In
Satori your awareness e.g. True Self can still perceive, think, comment - although in a
very reduced mode - in Full Enlightenment it is all gone. There appears to Be only One
Eternal Light, only THAT exists. You haven't become PART of Eternity, YOU ARE IT. It is a
State of Utter Fullfilment, empty of Self, but full of Otherness. In Dutch:
"Vol-Ledigheid", empty and full at the same time. A permanent State of Utter
Bliss and Joy, that is how it can be described. This Lightness of Eternal Being is
everywhere. Being Nothing, you are everything! The whole universe is part of it.
It is not an Experience, like in Christian
Mysticism, an Experience of Oneness with the Beloved. No, while the latter is temporary,
giving rise to endless new longings for Unity, True Enlightenment is existential. It means
that in that One Moment your whole Being is transformed and with it your (later) identity.
Deep down You Are Divine. It is your True Nature. To me it happened in 1977 and lasted the
whole day. Ever since it never left me, ever. It has become my True Nature. Its intensity
may vary, but its Essence is always there. Deep within I Am Immortal. Joy, gratefulness!
However, it wasn't the end of the story (see below).
How you know you Are It, since there is no you
anymore? Give Enlightenment another name and you will come closer to it. E.g. "Cosmic
Intelligence". If you ARE IT, then you KNOW. In order to KNOW you don't need the
mind. The latter is a derivative of the former, not the other way round. A State of
Knowing, you also might say. So, KNOWING KNOWS what happened, without the need of knowing
e.g. memorizing it with my small self. It is something that is often a considerable hurdle
in sharing it with other people. Especially nowadays, where everybody tries to be
smart(er). Isn't "to make a difference" a cornerstone of our ambitious ego's?
Before you know, jealousy creeps in. Sometimes I am so discouraged in "working with
other people" that I wished I was a hermit, once again.
In many traditions (Buddhism) this is considered the
most exalted Experience, available to humans. Which is not. In my life two more Dimensions
were revealed to me. I will tell them in the sequence of the Eight Dimensions (although in
Reality Step number Seven actually came first).
6. THE UNDERWORLD
Again, totally unprepared, which, as you may know
now, is one of the trustable signs of Divine Interference, in the night direct following
the Day of Light, I suddenly woke up, finding myself in an Ocean of Horror. Usually, fear
is in you, but this time it was in and around me. I was embedded in a hyperactive grey
Wall, that seemed to include me from all sides. Together with it, my bodymind, everything
that belongs to my common identity had disappeared in this All-Present Angst. Within a
split second my energy was gone, while deep electric currents pervaded me. I was chilled
to my bones, while getting a flash of an image in which worms were eating my flesh,
accompanied by death smell. I felt totally hopeless, the faculties of my mind also having
dissolved into this Ocean. No thoughts, feelings, no emotions or reflections. The Horror
had an incredible "sucking" quality, devouring everything. Fortunately, my
response was almost as quick. Intuitively I realized that this was a situation of life and
death. So, in a reflex I took the position of Zen-meditation, vertically sitting on the
ground. Realizing that one thing wasn't destroyed: my Clear Awareness. I clutched at
straws, since this Light inside was the only thing left. This way I sat the whole night.
The frightening thing was, that if I just moved a few centimeters to the front or the
behind, the Angst immediately jumped on me. So, I kept sitting in the exact vertical
position. (The Zen instructions given to pupils, namely to sit unmovingly in an upright
position must originally come from experiences like this). My endurance paid off, the more
my inner Space extended, the more the Angst subsided. In the early morning the latter had
gone. So, totally joyful and relieved I greeted the early (Indian) sun.
I realized that this was the true meaning of Death
and Resurrection. Rather than being a "physical" event Rebirth is spiritual. It
serves the destruction of the ego, while giving birth to your True Self. Curious that
after a Day of dissolving into the Eternal Light the Cosmos considered it necessary to
confront me with this, the greatest Angst possible! The size of my ego must have played a
decisive role.... If so, my gratitude is even greater, the Compassion of the Mother is
In history e.g. mythology this event is really rare.
Only a few teachers have experienced it (e.g. Tibetan Delogs often females! like Nangsa
Obum, furthermore Ramana Maharshi, Teresa of Avila, Bede Griffith). It is nothing less but
the descent into the Underworld. In my case the pendulum went from one extreme to the
other. Enlightenment (Heaven) and the Underworld being two sides of the same coin! This
isn't phantasy, an allegory or a fairy tale, but are Realities that are a thousand times
more real than common life. It can be translated into scientific categories. Creation (the
Light) and Destruction (the Horror) being the two Great Forces in the Cosmos. They oppose
each other, maintaining a dynamic equilibrium. The latter making life possible. Two
opposing Forces should have an Origin, though. In physics this Ultimate Dimension is
called the Vacuum. In ancient times people called it Cosmic Womb or "Great
Mother" (See Step Seven below).
Death and Resurrection has been claimed by
Christianity as being the attributes of Christ only. I, on the other hand, confirm that
they constitute the common spiritual heritage of mankind. It is the Core of Regeneration,
Rejuvenation and Renewal of all people. It belonged to the Great Mother Religion. There
Inanna descended into "Hell" to find Her Son/Lover Dumuzi (Tammuz). The deeper
meaning was to mirror the change of seasons, in which the hero died in autumn and was
reborn in spring, thus "strengthening" the powers of nature, guaranteeing the
success of the next harvest. Later, in the Hellenistic Mysteries people of all ranks had
themselves initiated, this time to undergo spiritual Transformation.
Last but not least. Both Buddha and Christ had the
Greatest Fulfillment at the end of their lives. On his death bed Buddha went into Nirvana,
while Christ died on the cross. I, on the other hand started
my spiritual life with it. This insight troubles me until this very day.....
7. THE COSMIC MOTHER
I already indicated it. My spiritual
Path started with Cosmic Realization e.g. a supernatural Lightning destroying not only my
bodymind, but by entire Being as well. For a split Second I wasn't there anymore. It was a
Moment of Absolute Nothingness, Blackness. This has nothing to do with the ego
disappearing into (relative) Emptiness (Enlightenment), but with the total annihilation of
Consciousness. Something the Buddha called "Nirvana", of which he hoped
he would enter at his death bed. This is what physics calls the Vacuum, it is equal to the
Cosmic Womb of the Mother Religion. Isis said: "nobody will ever lift my veil".
The meaning is that nobody will survive if directly confronted with the Ultimate.
Even Judaism says the same thing. Buddhism talks about the "Womb of the
Buddha's", however, meaning "just" Enlightenment, causing confusion about
the true Nature of the Cosmic Womb*. Not to mention all those who just identify with
images, idea's, concepts and experiences, subsequently claiming that they have
* The Buddhists also talk about
"Emptiness beyond Emptiness". However, I until now didn't come across anybody
claiming that he/she "realized" it, except one: Nangsa Obum. (See the wonderful
book of T.Allione "The Women of Tibet", Snow Lion Publications) See also: "Great Mother Buddhism"
In 1977 the "Mother" revealed Herself to
me. For the first time in history the Bottomless Depth of the universe - recognized as
Cosmic Womb - has made Herself known to humankind. The Revelation of "Something"
beyond "God" (the Light, Buddhahood) is THE religious revolution for the 21st
century! The survival of the planet depends on it, for only Nothingness can destroy the
ego, the latter being responsible for the global crisis. Existing religions have failed to
curb the ego. The mind always found ways to find an escape. Instead of actual spiritual
death it invented symbolic ways imitating the real thing. Only the confrontation with
Absolute Nothingness - Cosmic Mother inviting you - is able to do that. That doesn't mean
that everybody has to go naked before Her like it happened to me. A truly, honest and
authentic intention is for most people the maximum realizable. If continuously practised
the Mother will grant you Renewal of your entire Being.
In my experience, immediately after my Cosmic
"Black-Out" the Eternal Light was born. Light is born out of Darkness! It proves
that Enlightenment is NOT the Ultimate. To the contrary, it is the "Son" born
out of the Womb of the Cosmic Mother. The latter therefore called "Holy
Night". I instantly dissolved into this Light, I AM THE ETERNAL LIGHT, something
that lasted the whole day. While that same night I descended into the Underworld, the
Ocean of Horror that stripped me of all faculties. (see earlier). Cosmic Realization, the
highest possible Attainment thus consists, not only of Enlightenment (as Buddha said), but
includes three Dimensions that are all intimately interconnected. This "Trinity"
includes the Cosmic Mother, together with Her two Cosmic Forces (Dimensions): Creation
(the Light) and Destruction (the Underworld). These Two Forces oppose each other. Together
they make life possible. This is the core of my Teaching.
As said above, the Mother has revealed Herself to
mankind in order to restore Cosmic Balance. In order to do so, She destroys the ego (in
rare cases even Consciousness!), while giving birth to the Light (within). It has given me
an abundance of unsurpassed insights until this very day. Insights which during my last
twelve years of solitude and writing I have shared for free in my website. 2012 will be a
turning point in the sense that I long for sharing wisdom with all of you personally:
through talks, teachings, healing, guiding, training. Everything in the Name of the
* See "Threefold
8. IT IS LIKE IT IS
Frequent question:"how do you
feel nowadays?" Well, eh, just "normal" I think. Prove of that is, that it
rarely occurs to me, that I "am different". I can honestly say, that I consider
people to be the same like me. E.g. it took many, many years (33) before I started to make
myself known. Until very recently I didn't start any "spiritual talk" of my own.
If people don't ask me questions I just keep silent. Decisive is my life in the HereNow,
which means I am (mostly) my Clear Awareness. This Inner Space is empty, cause of the fact
that I am rarely occupied with thinking. The only desire left is to serve the Mother and
contribute to the wellbeing of all "beings". So I moved from a "writing
hermit" to making mySelf public. "The messenger is the message".
Eventually, I overcame my reluctance. The HereNow is giving me direct contact with the
surrounding world. Seeing/feeling a tree without interference of the mind, is a unique
experience. You not only see it as it is, but it is part of your extended Space as well.
Hence, my life is filled with joy and gratitude. In order to be optimally there for you I
do some exercise every day, which just for myself wouldn't be necessary.
But is goes further. The irony is
this. While most people use "spirituality" to become "special", I
returned to the marketplace, nothing special, nothing holy..... "To be special"
is thus NOT the outcome of the spiritual Path. But.... confronted with the necessity of
spreading my message - Cosmic Mother Healing the Planet - I am forced to adopt a certain
form that makes me "special". Without that, no recognition by people (being
mySelf is so subtle, that nobody recognizes IT), no impact on the course of events, no
power behind my Mission. It is a wellknown problem e.g. Maitreya Buddha's descent to
earth. Reluctantly, because he had to give up paradise in the Tushita Heaven....
Yes, I worship the Cosmic Mother,
Origin of All Life, of both the Divine - granted to me through Enlightenment, which is Her
Light Body, Her first Birth or Emanation - and the entire universe. What is extremely
important: my existential fear (of Nothingness, Death) has completely disappeared. I enjoy
the "small things in life" more than ever before, continuously being grateful to
what is bestowed upon me. Cosmic Life ranges from Ultimate Surrender to the Whole on the
one hand, and being identified with the ego on the other, and everything in between, like
it is elaborated in this essay. To say YES to every Moment, without the slightest desire
to change it, is true liberation. If the sun is shining fine, if it is raining equally
fine. It is the only way to experience Life As It Is. Inner Emptiness guarantees a
Lightness of Life, regardless the circumstances. Because, ultimately, everyone and
everybody is content of ("my"...) Divine Space, I love all "like
myself". It includes a feeling of "responsibility" for the entire planet.
My hope is that this website will give you guidance on your spiritual Path. In my best
Moments I Am, on the other hand, dissolved into Nothingness, enjoying Peace within and
without. In the mean time I help my wife with cooking, cleaning the home and shopping. A
very sacred activity, indeed!
Physical death is the nineth step. It is the only
stage, obviously, that I haven't experienced. However, I know about the spiritual
Dimension "beyond" it. Its stages are described above and can also be compared
to those of meditation. First there is disappearence of thoughts e.g. cognitive functions;
then of emotions; then of body awareness. In this sequence. It means that thinking is the
most superficial function, followed by emotions and body-awareness. Subsequently your
inner watcher is born, everything totally natural, provided you don't block it. You have
to let everything go. Consciousness spontaneously expanding itself further. So you
move from this your Third Eye to Satori or Small Enlightenment, the realization of
limitless Clarity. Through further extension of Space this your Satori enters Full
Enlightenment. You ARE the Eternal Light. There proves to be only THAT. Enlightenment
continuously returns to the Cosmic Womb, though, while being reborn in the same Eternal
Moment. Because it is dying and reborn in the selfsame Eternal Moment, the quality of the
Divine remains the same. It seems "unchanging". Yes, death thus means to become
immortal. This Ultimate Stage is so transparant, though, that it is questionable that you
will ever "realize" it. You ARE IT, but you don't know it. The Ultimate
Forgetfulness! Also - for reasons mentioned above - "you" will never experience
the underlying Vacuum directly. "Nobody will ever lift my veil" the
MotherGoddess Isis said. In our entire history only VERY rare cases report about Absoltute
Nothingness "experienced" during earthly life (see above).
My gratitude is limitless. The deepest possible
Cosmic Realization has been granted to me. At the same I realize the responsibility that
this "gift" is giving me. To me the "We are born to make manifest the glory
of God" (the Mother!) (M.Williamson) has become acute. Indeed, "our deepest fear
is that we are powerful beyond measure". However, it is not us (our small self) but
the Divine within, that shines. I must confess, for a very long time I have been playing
small. I did not serve the world as it should be. So, there is regret but also a renewal
of commitment. This time there is no way back. Both the (self-induced) crisis within and
without has put (wo)mankind with the back against the wall. We have no choice but to stand
up. Everything in the Name of the Mother.
JAI MATA DI!
(May the Mother prevail)
Han Marie Stiekema
Universal Teacher thanks to the Great Mother, Who granted him All Eight/Nine Dimensions of
* See "Threefold Realization"